Maybe I always choose the guy that I know will never work
... so that way I don't have to actually endure something real.
I don't want to let myself get hurt. Not like that.
I've never been "in love"... and I'm okay with that.
I'm scared of it.
The fact that I could put my heart on the line to someone like that.
I don't know what kind of shape I would get it back in.
Or maybe I'm just not the "girlfriend type".
That could be it.
I like the physical part of a relationship more than anything else.
I'm not shallow.
I don't like all the talk and feelings.
I like physically being with someone and feeling secure&important&pretty.
Even if that lasts for just a moment.
I need something tangible.
I can't picture myself in a relationship.
I'm just there when you want.
And that is all.
*EDIT: I'm not talking about sex, you asshole. thanks.